Tomorrow's Today

sleep felt better than I could have
dreamed.
emptied my stomach
of another uprising,
torrents of old words
and new fears
while the night was
still
around me.
I begged him
to stop it,
anything but this.
instead he sat
on the bathroom floor
and held me
in the mess.
Didn't even shower
just climbed into the
bed that remembers
and drifted into
dark.
Woke up with
fingers still itching
ribcage still humming
hair still curling
questions still burning.
But pain floods me
without mercy
and often
leaves without
reason.