Goodbye

we said,
let's not
and then we didn't.
and then we did.
and then we said,
let's not.
and then I thought,
it might be too late.
and it was.
but we said let's not.
and we didn't.
and you kept up your side.
and it looked like I did too.
because you couldn't see me sleep.
and because you couldn't see through my skin.
and it hurt but don't worry.
I also said let's not.
and I was lying and telling the truth that was best.
it was the truth that was best.
because one day I got better
(I was sick with it you know)
and then you said plans had changed
and all I could do was breathe deeply and thank the Doctor for His cure.
For peace in alone. and for a touch that didn't singe the corners of my heart anymore.
it used to do that, did you know?